Saturday, August 1, 2009
 Im on off duty today. yea, at last im free from werk. well, decided to do my car lessons at bddc. yea, i was at bbdc for almost half the day. do what i could and rush everything up. haha! currently, looking for a slots for my practical. had to do it fast! i just wanna drive! :)saturday used to be a day out for me, however, not today. i dont even have any plans. friends are busy with each other own life. back to my loneliness and due to this, it made me think about things that shuldnt come across my mind. haha! well, here i am at home blogging. before i start deeper, happy nurses day to all the nurses out there! yea, update pls. thats what people wanna read right. here are my updates currently.. im soo in love with my job. nursing aint that bad afterall. im enjoying it now. and hope this will last long. haha! well, to that someone. i know you will be reading this. im speechless when u utter those words. when all u can say was " u are like treating me like a fool, like a toy! and im only ur last resort. no plans then u'll search for me.." waoh.. those words are really harsh to be utter out ok. if u think that im treating u like a fool or a toy, why in the first place u still dun wanna give me up and still falling for me. i dont force anyone to love me u see. and i just dun like when people say im treating that someone like a fool or even a toy! and pls, im not even thinking abt myself, im thinking abt ur position too. if all this while u think im just playing around, pls, u are most welcome to give up and move on. but pls, dun utter those words cause those words had been utter frm ur mouth for soo many times. and i kept quiet, but till that day, i cant bear hearing those words. it hurt my ears. well, i had enough u see. it make me wonder. u guys would want to go an extra mile to get us in ur life. but when u get us, u guys just sit back and relax. and at the end of it, its u people who would hurt us. and dun blame us if anything happens. so, if u want to make ur extra miles worthwhile, plsss, treasure our presence. im being dissappointed for two times by both guys which i love soo much. yea, before falling in love, this two guys would just do anything to make me fall for them. and yea, i did fall and u people did catch me. it was wonderful for months and even years. but as months and years go by, things changed. i was the only one hoping and praying things would go smoothly. and u guys just suddenly left me alone coping my feelings and life without u. and truly it sucks and hurt me soo much. i even thought of killing my life and put to an end to everything. i dun wanna be a girl that would go into a relationship with any guys and break up few months after, then, date another guy and the cycle go back and again. i would rather know u people for months and be in relationship that would last till my last breathe. i just dun know why suddenly i feel so damn tired with life now. feel like putting an end to it. i lost everything. i dun even know who to turn too and cry. i dun even know whose shoulders should i lean on...whose ears should i whisper to and talk my heart out. and to any guys out there, sorry if u think im treating u people like a TOY. maybe i am doing that without me realising. thank you for everything. and pls, i just need one guy to prove to me that all the guys are different! right now, no one has done it. and pls dont make me hate guys one day cause that will be badd. real bad. Y |
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