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Monday, August 10, 2009
thinking and thinking is what i do in my free time. sometimes i just wanna take a break from thinking abt things. but i just cant. things just keep on running in my mind. and yeah, finally, i made up my mind. i quit. i dun wanna hope anything more frm my ex. meeting u or hearing ur voice, doesnt have any effects on me anymore. suddenly, i just lost the love. it takes me a long time to feel this and i dun know why. and when my bestfriends talked to me abt this, i realise that i shuldnt have hope that u came back in my life. cause i know, uve moved on. but as days passed, i finally made up my mind that im not gonna hope or wait for u anymore. or even in the upcoming years u wanan turn to me back, i wont accept it. cause i aint that simple for u to throw and pick me up back. im sorry. i've been to generous to u till i hurt myself for nothing. and i dun think, u could be the one that will stand beside me when i need someone. and for ur info, im not even satisfied with my previous love stories. i wont say ure the best in my life cause i dun think u are. cause ur love just torture me enough. and i had enough of that. and if ure reading this, good for u. this is what i've been wanting to tell u. i wont regret our love, u shuld be. cause u just cant see the difference between love and true love. arrghh.. this word "Love" just made me sick. it comes and go easily. i hate it.i just dun wanna think abt it too much. all i can say..LOve just torture me. yea, i did fall in love somehow.. but due to some circumstances, i wanna free myself frm it. cause i think its too soon to get a new partner. i dun wanna repeat the same mistakes i did. i just want to understand this love thingy. cause all i need now is just true love from someone sincere. i just need one guy to prove to me that all of them are not the same. cause now in my mind, i think u people are just the same. u guys just cant resist girls who are more better than us. and from there, u tend to let go the sincere one.whatever..all i can say is.. may you be happy with ur life. cause i dun wanna interfere with it. just let me be single for life and take care of my parents. haha. oh maybe, my lover is just in some other country. someone maybe a portugese? indonesian? lol. i wished. i may have no one at some point of time, but its ok. cause at the end of it, i die on my own too. soo, right now, i just have to stand on my two feets alone. and from now, i can say. Im starting a new beginning. Opening my eyes to search my true soulmate. wth. mepeks. ok, im done. going to my lala land.thanks to all the people who listened to my probs and make me open my eyes. cause somehow, love just makes us blind. just need someone to wake us up frm that. and i hope, when my soulmate catched me, just look into my eyes and tell me that word i've been waiting for. and, i'll give you my life and soul. haha. ok whatever, im getting crapier. lala land! Y Labels: just be strong. |
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