time for an update in my life currently. well, this is something personal but just wanna share it. well, been knwing this guy for a month or so and yea, i've meet him. we have meet up a couple of times and truly, im enjoying every day out i had. he showed me what spore is and thanks for that. however, things happen. when i came to realise that im cheating my own feelings and his feelings.im soo sorry. truly, i admit that i still LOVE my ex, Shahril. and yea, i have not move on. i still somehow think of him and miss him. but i know, nothing gonna happen afterall. its just me feeling this way. but it takes two hand to clap. but im not hoping for anything shahril, i only pray for the best. :) and when u call me almost every single day, it makes me wonder why. but now i know, cause u do care about me although love doesnt exist. im fine with that. i dun expect anything though.

to that someone. im sorry to ask u to leave and even me leaving you. the reason is not because i want to wait for my ex. but, i just dun wanna hurt anyone in the future. maybe getting hurt now is better than getting hurt in the future. and i know how u feels. cause all this while, i know somehow u hope i'll be the one for you. but im not gonna be that ONE. and truly, i dun even know what the future holds for me. maybe i end up with my ex or even someone else. that is why, i think i better just live my life as it is. all alone. cause, i've been strong in leading my life. its not that i dun need man in my life.i do need them one day. but for this moment NO. i just wanna be a girl that leads her own simple life. soo, all the best to him. U may be damn angry or even wanna kill me during some point of time. but like i told you, i told u to stop and the rest is up to you. u may hate me or bad mouth me but i dont care. its part and parcel of LIFE.

yeah..now, im ALONE. living my own life. and i hope its the best for me. cause im damn stupid in decision making. :) i dun wanna think of love or even mariage. all i wanna think now is to be happy surrounded by beautiful people around and to travel around the world. i just want that in my life. once again, sorry to you. and to my ex, i have not move on yet, but i know u've move on. and its great to know that. no worries, soon, it will fade away slowly. Y