Sunday, May 31, 2009
  today did my theory practice. and i failed all the booklets! lol. but nvm, i'll study hard soon. at least i did good w/o even studying. if i study, i think, i'll passed.haha. but nvm, its just a Practice. practice make perfect u know. so i have to practice more. haha. ended at 2pm.decided to meet a friend of mine. yeah, headed to jurong point cause we cant be heading to the east as we are in the west.lol. headed down to jurong point..stroll around there. i saw this jacket which is soo fabulous. wanted to buy it but i need to save my money! nooo! i cant resist it. will buy it soon.haha. wanted to catch a movie at jurong point but the queue was just too long..xtremely long! so, we changed our mind and had a different plan. decided to watch it at cck.  catched this movie and all i could say is...its hilarious! i just enjoyed it..although i didnt watched the first series,i still think its a nice show. it worth my $9.50 tix. haha. yea..after the show, we grab some snack. that's my fav alll time -Prata sausage-! we headed up to the roof garden. the first pic there is the roof garden. i didnt know that cck has been that upgraded! haha. just love it sitting there..lookin at the kids playing with those water. the wind just keep blowing and we just keep on talking. had a great time. (= btw my friend, we'll try the ice cream that we saw at jurong point one day.. its cool man! haha.back to cwp around 9. meet up with my family.. home sweet home after that. and btw tmrw im going to get that jacket that i saw! and i have to go to cwp tmrw around 11am just to redeem something at the info counter. well, loving every single days that im going thru now..Y Saturday, May 30, 2009  As days goes by, im admit that im getting tired and exhausted. Now i know how hard it is to work and earn a living. im truly exhausted for the past months cause i just couldnt get a proper sleep and enough rest. my body is getting weaker and weaker. Now, im down with flu again but not swine flu ya. My head right now, feels like knocking it on the wall. I just dunnoe why and i hope it will get better soon.Well, yesterday, had a call from my ex, Shahril. im surprised! Truly. i was with my mum having dinner when he called. i ask him why he called cause there must a reason when suddenly you just picked up ur phone and dialed my number. and the reason was that:" i just wanna know how have you been." ouh well, i've been great fyi. well, truly, i dun even feel excited or what when i receive his call. whatever it is, just suprised to hear ur voice after a couple of months keeping quiet. lol. so he send his regards to my mum. i told my mum and my mum was suprised too. my mum had been wanting to meet him and give him a tap on his shoulder. i dunnoe why. but, thank you mum for the support that you gave me. im touched that you still do bother about all this. although, i know. u are truly sad with all this happening to ur daughter. no worries mum! there must be a reason for all this. maybe there's someone better out there waiting for me! and i hope soo.. cause im truly scared to answer a love's call.. make sure when i fall, its worth the fall. (= Been a long time i never update my blog. im blessed and happy with my life currently. great to be surrounded by my Friends all days long. great to get to know new people. i just miss all my friends now. where are you guys?! June, im starting my shift work and i think i would be damn busy with my life now. dunnoe when i can meet u guys and catch up with u all cause right now, IM MISSING YOU guys. Y Thursday, May 28, 2009  Today i ended at 5. the talk on SWE was a fun one. i was not asleep. the speaker was a fun person and i just cant stop laughing. that was aan interactive class. well, ended at 5. plan to meet Faridah at cwp. so, i thought she was going to be the one waiting for me cause she ended around 330pm. however, she was still in school and donating her blood. so, i decided to head down to her school as i dun wanna wait for her all alone at cwp. met her at RP and took some pictures of a life saver. yea, she save life but not herself. i reached there and saw her leg being prop up. guess what, she went hypo after the donation. hw could she not went hypo..she just took a breakfast which was at 10am. siow girl! u may just faint there man.. luckily the doctor was concern and manage to get her back on her feets.meet up with nurul at cwp. Izzat came after we went to take a stroll in cwp. we are just walking aimlessly. but sad, izzat was soo busy and concern about his bike getting fine. just chill man, anything happen, i hold the responsibility.haha.mcm paham! well, iizat decided to just sit by himself behind kfc and watch his bike. so met him back and ask to go for a dinner. faridah was weak already..that girl need to be fed! we went to catch a dinner at Macdonalds. first, nurul and izzat was not into eating. until i voice out and say "aku belanje la!".. wth..nurul quickly ordered for a Mcspicy meal! kate tak nak makan, tapi kalau aku belanje terus laju! lol. so, izzat was still trying to be nice..haha. i force him hard enough until he decided to eat nuggets. haiyoh, just to treat my friends are not that easy. some may be easy but some may just need to be force. haha. overall, had a great evening with all of them. they just make my day. thank you guys for meeting up..ILY!cant wait to meet the others who are damn busy with life..soon ya guys!    Thank you for being such a nice people surrounding me! i'm just blessed and filled with love by all of you. thank you again..Y Monday, May 25, 2009  Yes. something just i wanna share here. something from my heart and from my mind. so, anyone who reads it pls..dont msg me or call me after you guys have read this post.haha.well, something just bothers me for this past fews days. i am not sure whether im in love or just a feelings for a moment. i am not sure whether i am really ready to fall in love again. but when i think back, i dont think i am. i think im not still in the clear state of mind to accept all these things. i am so sorry to anyone that reads this. i am now in my confuse state. i dont know whether what im doing now is right or wrong. im not even rushing or what. i just feel awkward with all this that im doing now. i just dunnoe why. i dun think i can.. cause it seem impossible. however, all i can say is, just let time decides. if there's something, well, it will happen. im leaving all this to God. right now, i think its best to be just BESTFRIEND. yea. Y Saturday, May 23, 2009   Yea..get my first pay and im happy with it. although its only a 2 week pay. however, i manage to treat my family to eat. we had a difficult decision on where to eat but lastly, all decided to have dinner at pastamania. thank you acap for the VIP discount. haha. well, had a great day with my family. i bought my dad a shirt and some stuffs. for my mum,just gave her cash and i hope its enough for her. haha. had a great day out with all of them. Tmrw im off. at last i get a day off. but tmrw, i'll bet i'll be busy. i had plans ahead and hope that i could go with it as planned. heard there's a Crocs sale at expo, so i think i wanna head there. to that someone who wanna accompany me, plss.. dun bubble me k! hahaha. and to my girlfriends, not the time yet to tell you guys who that someone is. its a secret. haha. soon u will know. haha. well, had a great time today. im happy today. msging with him and hearing those words from him just make me smile. i dunnoe why but i feel different. haha. Thank you anyway. i will just wait till you really fall and hit the ground. haha. and to my lovely friends out there, im missing you guys badly!! really bad.. plsss, just meet up soon! yeaaaa..Y Friday, May 22, 2009  well, truly one word to describe my daily life now --> EXHAUSTED. everyday waking up early in the morning is just not my type. i have to get use to this cause this is my LIFE now. well beginning to enjoy and looking forward to work now. although its tiring but my collegues and patients are the one who motivates me to come to work everyday. thank you! Life as been great soo far. im beginning to accept the reality and move on. im moving on and im forgetting all the bad things that happen but the good times still remain fresh in my mind though. well, im happy and blessed with my life now. started my career and soon will achieve all the dreams that i've always had. i will achieve it with or without You. it doesnt make a difference. Im still ME.still bubbly and smiling! haha. This few days, i admit that im DAMN happy! dun ask me why..i dun even have the answer. maybe because im getting my pay? or maybe im just..Happy for myself? haha. whatever it is. Im happy with life currently. a life on my own is just enough to make me happy. Thank you GOD for giving me the strength in leading my life. just one thing im sad, i cant learnt from my mistakes cause i dun even know what i made in my previous life. how can i improve myself when i dun even know where i go wrong? get the point? i hope you do. but its ok, i will just lead my life like normal, hoping not to repeat the mistakes i made.YEA! Y Saturday, May 16, 2009  Yeah.started my career last week. it has been exciting. However tiring for me cause for one month, i have to wake up early. the whole month will all start morning. that is tiring man. i cant stand it but i have to be strong. i just love my job currently. happy that at last i started my career. i hope i will be able to stay long in this. well, lately i have been sleeping late and not taking care of myself. now im down with fever and flu. but not swine flu, i hope soo. haha. well, although i fall sick, i do still wanna come to work. fun to be back in the same ward as i were last time. just need few more days for me to be more independent. i'm forgetting some of the skills already. haha. well, had my flu vacination that day and my arm is still killing me. omg.well, heard the news of swine flu in malaysia just make me scared. as nurses, we have to deal with this. why should swine flu come! plss.i hope it stops somewhere. haha. well, missing my friends and life lately. it seem that i dun even have a life?? haha. but whatever it is. i dont care. now, i need to have a rest for a day and i hope i'll be fine back to work on monday. to my friends, IMY! pls..meet up soon ya. Y Tuesday, May 12, 2009  yea. the big day for me as arrives. the day i have been waiting for, my graduation. Firstly, thank you soo much to my beloved mum and Faridah for sparing their time to come down and see me graduate. I apppreciate it and Love you guys. well, nervous is what i can say when i was down there walking to receive my diploma. well, at some point of time, i feel that i just wanna cry. not sad but tears of joy. i have completed my 3 years study and thank you to my parents for supporting me. Now, my career have started too. i will do my best in everything. To all my friends who have graduated too, all the best in your career. I'm missing my poly times man. nice to see you guys. Love ya.   well, i'm proud of myself to achieve this. To shahril, i know you wanna come down and see me graduate but too bad. its ok, i understand. just sad that you werent by my side. however, thank you to you too for supporting me during my poly times. it has been a long journey for me and there's more to come. i've started my career and i hope i will achieve what i want in my life now. Thank you again to my MUM and FARIDAH. your presence has made me happy. REALLY happy. that's all for now. i'm tired with work already. now im down with fever and flu. no worries, will recover soon. LOves. Y   Labels: Thank You. Sunday, May 10, 2009  yesterday had to work at tepak sireh.we had to attend a training on friday before the actual event. it was a BIG event. It was a mother's day dinner reception with karaoke session. there's a free photo session for all mum. first come first serve tables will be given a tiara and a secret recipe cake. awesome. the big event was Kris Dayanti! she will be having her dinner there after her concert at esplanande. that was what i was lookin g forward.haha.reported to work at 5pm yest.setting up all the tables. guests started to come around 7pm. i was incharge of two tables. it was tough and tiring cause we have to take their order. served their drinks, starter, appertizer, main course and lastly the dessert. overall, it went on smoothly. keep doing my task till it was 11pm. and the person that all are waiting for arrives. Kris Dayanti. she was accompanied by her husband, Anang, and two lovely kids. too bad, i only had a glimpse of her pic. well, its not only kris dayanti having her dinner there, there were others too. they were rossa, sleeq, hafiz glamour, melly goeslow and more. OMG! it was an experience for all of us. here are some of the pic i manage to take.    event will end at 2am but we all are release at 1130pm. had to catch for the last train, however, there was no last train. so we took a bus to yishun and grab supper at Macd. went back to home by taxi. home sweet home at 2am.Y Friday, May 8, 2009   wei..i'm missing those days sia. the day we had chalet. It was the BEST day in my life. when is the next one? haha. all are left memories but it will never fade. oh gosh..i just love the bunch of friends i have in my life! they are the one that will stick to me forever no matter what. i had a big group of friends and i just LOVE them. they make me laugh like shit and the crapiness among us, only God knows. lol. To: My beloved friends. Just wanna let you guys know that u guys are part of my life now. i will never regret knowing each one of you. every one of u has played an important part in my life, and i thanked you. although some of you may had hurt me in some time, i do forgive you and i still do love you. i may have lost someone i love truly but i have not lost you guys. i still have HIM as my friend. i feel blessed to have you all as my friends. Thank you God for creating a wonderful people around me. to some close friends whom i shared my problem with, i hope u know who u are. I wanna thank you for being there for me. Life as been tough for me but because of you guys, i made it till NOW. you guys are the Best Friends i have had. BFF! Yea..that is truly frm the bottom of my heart. i realise that friends should come in 2nd in your life. the 1st is all up to you, maybe ur family or some may want it to be their lovers. its all depends. but guys, whatever happened, the one who will follow you till the end will be your friends. so do treasure them as long as they are still your friends. lol. i dunnoe why suddenly i'm soo emo. i just feel the love from my friends and i appreciate it. Thanks y'all. Y Labels: Love you guys. Tuesday, May 5, 2009  Yesterday night had a meet up session with Nurul and Faridah. its been a long time since we hang out. I miss those days. meet up with nurul around 7pm. Idah came up later. had our dinner at KFC. we are just addicted to KFC i guess.lol. i had to meet Shahril cause i wanna pass him something. he also wanted to pass me something. so, met up with him around 9pm. sat behind KFC for quite sometime. Home sweet home at 11pm. Thank you Shahril u bought me a cap.na di realise its the same as urs just that the color is different.hehe. i really like it. appreciate it lots.so Izzat, u can get ur cap back! haha. well, i pass him all the things that belong to him. all the memories. i just cant keep it cause i tend to look back at it and cry. its just too much. i gave him the anniversary cards that he gave me for the past years. gave him all the pictures that we took together. i had nothing left in my cupboard that associate with my relationship anymore. i dunnoe if u were able to put urself in my shoe. u can have it.just do anything to it.u may burn it or whatever cause it may be meaningless to u but not to me. i wanna keep it but i cant cause its just too much for me. Sorry. Well guys, i have make up my mind. i'm not gonna fight for him. From today onwards, i am REALLY letting him go. yes i am. i know its gonna be hard. but with all my friends and family around mee, i think i'm capable of it. to my friends, esp. Faridah and Izzat. u guys have help me alot. Sorry faridah cause i gave up too fast and not fight for him. To Izzat, i will move on. thanks for ur advises. i'm blessed that i still do have my friends around me. However guys, dun think that Shahril is at fault. cause he's not. he got his own feelings. i cant force him to love me. he's doing what he think is right for himself. i love you.Y  Well, things changed now. for the past few days, i still hope and pray that my love will come back to me. but hopes just hurt me. I appreciate the relationship that i we had been together Shahril. You made me open my eyes and make me understand the meaning of true love. i thought i'm gonna be ur one and only but its not. Like u said, love doesnt always end with happiness. u're right. I've been with u for almost 4 years when suddenly u utter those words that i cant barely take it. i cant even stop crying. it hurt me alot for the past few days. however i still do not want to give up. i still think that i'm gonna fight for u and win ur heart cause i think u're worthy to me. but as days pass, the pain is just killing me. I gave up. yes, i did. im not gonna do anything. u want us to be friends, i will. but i'm wondering. its soo unfair to be treated this way. i was soo deeply in love with you when suddenly u came up and tell me that u dont feel the love anymore. i think and think. where did i did wrong?i couldnt even find an answer for that. u didnt even tell me earlier that ur feeling are fading away.why? if u tell me earlier, maybe we can do something to save it. but maybe u just dun wanna save it. whatever. i just dont know what is running thru ur mind.someone tell me pls. now, i gave up. im tired and i cant bare the pain anymore. you may just kill me anytime. so i just end it.that may be better for u. hope u find someone that will truly love you. thank you for all the memories that we had together. i appreciate every moment that we spent together. Labels: I gave up. Sunday, May 3, 2009 Weekend kinda bored for me. use to looking forward for it but not now.yesterday get a call from tepak sireh. wanted me to work. grab etri and nurul along as they are shortage of staffs there. reached there 15mins late.gosh!get ready and waited for the briefing. well, the event on that day was just a lunch for the MPs. i and the manager was the one in charge of the VIP table as i was not new there. i was afraid to serve the them as i might just spill something or what. but everything went smoothly. Good. enjoy our day there. ended with delicious foods serve to us. yeah. next week will be Kris Dayanti eating there. cool. but i'm starting my career soon, so, i dont think i'll work there. i'll miss that place. Today..woke up late as i slept late yesterday night. had no plans today. my phone didnt ring for the past few hours since i woke up. guess that all my friends are kinda busy. i'm all alone rotting at home. gosh..i just cant take it. feel that its been days since i breathe that fresh air outside. lol. wish that every weekend is great as usual but its not. pls GOD, help me to be strong in living my life each day cause now i'm weak. i am. Labels: Help. Friday, May 1, 2009 Woke up quite late today. straight away on my computer. oh man, i'm addicted to computer nowadays. played a game at fb. i'm loving it! Faridah ended her school around 4pm. i invited her over to my place. just to let her karaoke at my place. Thats what she has been craving from that time. sang all she could. i was busy in the kitchen cooking dinner for my family. people are just grabbing the hot dogs! So, faridah ended the karaoke session and join me in the kitchen. Sit and chat. After cooking, they had their dinner while i go for a shower. Mum wanted me to go over cwp and buy durians for her. so, headed to cwp with etri and faridah at 8.30pm. get the money from mum and bought the durians at cold storage. idah bought for her family too. she had one extra packet and decided to share among us and of course her love. waited behind KFC for her love. Once yat started to eat, they all grab it too. i was not in the mood of eating durians. home at 9.30pm. what a short trip to cwp..now i realise that i have not eaten for the whole day! omg..i still didnt feel hungry. i'll soon fall sick man. My body are aching.maybe due to yesterday fall!Today, shahril will be back from taiwan. good! at last he's back. been waiting for ur return. i'm missing him badly. but i got to be strong and i am now. and i will be for the coming days.Y Labels: He's back.  A day for me to remember. mum was off on weds. she wanted me to accompany her for shopping. so i had too cause nobody else was at home. spent half of the day with mum. Etri sms me around 7pm, invited me for a jog. i was up to it! reached home around 8.30, i quickly get changed and was ready for a jog. Meet nurul and her small bro, Ajid, at the bus stop. And nurul, stop acting to be fierce before i get mad.lol. Faridah did not join for the jog as she was asthmatic. she will join after the jog. so, i and nurul all started to jog. Ajid always want to be the first. so, we just jog slowly. reaching to faridah blk..i had a feeling of sprinting and be the first person rather than Ajid. so i sprint! when i came to this corner..OMG! i just lost my balance and i fell. it was soo bad. thanks to nurul and etri for helping me. Helping to laugh their ass off! i was badly injured sia. but i know it was funny. so, headed to faridah blk..i thought she was at home. but the truth came. we were under her blk when she just wants to take the lif up! LIAR! all the way she was at cwp meeting her love. so i ask her to bring some first aid for me. she wore a glove on her right hand, holding a two cotton balls applied with minyak gamat. she thought my bruises was a small one but its not. however, thanks medic! we had fun playing the badminton. i almost forget that i fell. lol. Thanks to Ajid for being the referee. He had his own rules and regulation. whoever plays cheat start from zero again. lol. He made us laugh. Children just make our day u see. Stop for awhile as i need to pay mum's bill. Faridah accompanied me while Etri was playing badminton with her BF. When i came back, i knew who was losing. the one sweating like pig. ACAP! loser. haha. Overall, had fun. Y Labels: Love it although i'm in pain. |
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